Feeling So Sad...

this couple of days i'm feeling kinda sad and down...
well, why is this so?
the answer is because i have to make a choice on whether to further my studies or to continue working in my current job.

i've always wanted to study in university and i've waited this long and now that the time has come, i'm in the middle of midst and i'm lost.

i dunno if i should pursue or continue my job here. sigh.

and if i choose to continue my studies, then should i continue to major in construction line?

for over this few weeks, my head and the seniors has been advising me to think over about it and they feel that i'm not suitable in this construction line.
they told me that i'm more suit to become a secretary or some kind of PR things~

and if u guys were wondering why is it like that, this is because they said that i'm too soft and that i cannot stand at the construction site! sigh. damn sad.

i've lose confidence in myself and i dunno what should i do right now.

i really want to continue my studies in construction management and i dun think that after i come out i have only one choice which is to become a project manager~

anyway, i can choose to work with sub con's company, cant i...?
and i can also choose to work in developer's firm... do u think i'm right?

i really dunno. damn.