Feeling So Guilty

i guess today is my first time going out to eat dim sum with my grandmother after all these years...

last night, my aunty called my mother and me but both of us didn't answer. after a while, my mother messaged her back and ask why did she call us.

my aunty called back and said that my grandmother wanted to meet me for breakfast tomorrow morning, which was today.

so, today i waited for them at the Komtar there and my aunty said she will fetch me at 9am. but i reached there at 8.30am.

Komtar

waited for them til 9am, my grandmother said i'm punctual... =S LOL... actually not always lorr...
suddenly i feel that my grandmother is getting older and older... i can see it from her face~ sigh... and yet, i can't do anything.

she gave me a 'big' ang pao today... swt... i felt so guilty because i know its her savings and how can i accept such a big ang pao? what i mean is that, i really feel bad about it and i wished to give her back.

but she said no and asked me to keep in case of anything happen to me when i am away from home... she also said that being away from home is different because in here, i can always go back to my family but when i'm away from home, everything will not be the same~

sigh... what should i do? i have to wait for another two years to give her back the ang pao and i really feel sorry and guilty for her because how could i take an old lady's ang pao?! shit me.

we went to eat dim sum and i feel that she eat really few only... sigh. is it she don't really like to eat dim sum? or what? i'm so guilty!

while we were having our dim sum, my aunty said that last night my grandmother slept half way then she dreamed about me and woke up and says that i'll be leaving and she didn't bring me to eat yet...

that's why my aunty called.
= =

my grandmother even asked for my account number... omg that makes me feel bad. but i didn't give her at last. LOL.

and she also said that if anyhting happen, i have to inform her. sigh. i'm feeling so guilty. what should i do? i'm so useless.

Happy 21st Birthday to Myself

today is my 21st birthday and i did nothing.
LOL...

early in the morning, i went to eat Hokkien Mee for my breakfast because in Kampar dont have this type of food!

then had lunch with my mother and my ee pohs (Sa Ee Poh and See Ee Poh) at the Weld Quay choo char~

the food

heh korr bak (lobster baby)

lala

*i duno what was it*

curry fish

koh kua (not really into it)

very sorry because i don't know how to translate it in English... haha.

anyway, i just want to thank See Ee Poh for footing the bill and also Sa Ee Poh for giving me ang pao! LOL! *^.^*

my ang pao~ LOL...

ok... it's my 21st birthday... and no one give me the key yet~
swt... = =


LOL... and almost all my close friends were all in KL and some in other places!
so none of my friend celebrated my 21st birthday with me... *pity*


anyway, i was touched when my housemates Corene, Ah Hock and JY played and sang Happy Birthday song for me two days ago by using JY's guitar... thank you so much.

and also thanks for those who remembered my birthday... you guys are really true friend~

as for Jen...
err... i thought we knew each other when we were in standard 4 (10 years old) ..?
LOL! *^.^* or maybe i old d that's why i can't really remember when we knew each other... haha...
yeah, you've seen me grewing up and been always there for me...
thanks for everything and thanks for being my friend!
without you, i think my life will be empty...
*oops! don't get me wrong... i'm not a lesbian! LOL...* =X

=) so long~