Feeling So Guilty

i guess today is my first time going out to eat dim sum with my grandmother after all these years...

last night, my aunty called my mother and me but both of us didn't answer. after a while, my mother messaged her back and ask why did she call us.

my aunty called back and said that my grandmother wanted to meet me for breakfast tomorrow morning, which was today.

so, today i waited for them at the Komtar there and my aunty said she will fetch me at 9am. but i reached there at 8.30am.

Komtar

waited for them til 9am, my grandmother said i'm punctual... =S LOL... actually not always lorr...
suddenly i feel that my grandmother is getting older and older... i can see it from her face~ sigh... and yet, i can't do anything.

she gave me a 'big' ang pao today... swt... i felt so guilty because i know its her savings and how can i accept such a big ang pao? what i mean is that, i really feel bad about it and i wished to give her back.

but she said no and asked me to keep in case of anything happen to me when i am away from home... she also said that being away from home is different because in here, i can always go back to my family but when i'm away from home, everything will not be the same~

sigh... what should i do? i have to wait for another two years to give her back the ang pao and i really feel sorry and guilty for her because how could i take an old lady's ang pao?! shit me.

we went to eat dim sum and i feel that she eat really few only... sigh. is it she don't really like to eat dim sum? or what? i'm so guilty!

while we were having our dim sum, my aunty said that last night my grandmother slept half way then she dreamed about me and woke up and says that i'll be leaving and she didn't bring me to eat yet...

that's why my aunty called.
= =

my grandmother even asked for my account number... omg that makes me feel bad. but i didn't give her at last. LOL.

and she also said that if anyhting happen, i have to inform her. sigh. i'm feeling so guilty. what should i do? i'm so useless.

Happy Chinese 牛 Year

Happy Chinese New Year!

today, i went to my grandmother's place and she gave us to eat the original Teow Chew kuih...

well, actually i don't even know what is that kuih's name. LOL...

Teow Chew kuih made by my grandmother

hmm... to tell the truth, i don't know how to eat that kuih also... haha!

sat there for more than one hour, my grandmother thought that we will eat lunch at her place. so she decided to cook for our part. when i see her bangkuang char, her soup, her vege and her chicken, gosh... that looks very nice.

but we didn't have our lunch there though... at first my brother refused to call her ah mah because he thinks that he has only one ah mah... swt. = =
that was a dangerous part! LOL...

anyway, these are all my favourite dishes and food during the Chinese New Year~

favourite dishes

'char sio bak' and chicken

'joo hoo char'

mandarin oranges

chips made of 'ciku' with sugar topping

'bahu piah'

'bee hives' bought by See Ee Po

Tagged by YC

this time is YC's turn to tag on me!
LOL...

swt... = =

Directions :
Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose ten people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don't forget to leave a comment (''You're tagged!'') and to read your blog, you can't tag the person who tagged you.

1. I'm a sleeping pig.
2. I love to watch dramas, especially love stories.
3. Wanted to become active in sports~ usually failed to do so.
4. Very particular about cleanliness? Perhaps.
5. Wished I can be clever.
6. Always wanted to organise something but ended up forgetting about it.
7. Lazy.
8. I've always wanted to become a top girl in my class during my primary school, but I guess I failed to do so.
9. Growing fat and fatter!!
10. Moody.
11. Goal - slim down to get back my original body shape!
12. Non expressive.
13. Day-dreamer~
14. People would think that I'm not friendly at times.
15. I hate guys who can't even protect the one they loves and tend to keep silent rather than stand up for her.
16. How I wish if my charming prince celebrate my 21st birthday with me yesterday... *I'm dreaming again*

LOL...

and the ten person that i'm going to tag are...

1. Yuh Jen - she loves blogging
2. Phoebe Chew - for fun
3. Hui Ping - for fun
4. Hun Seang - wanted to kaypo
5. Ivan Heng - wanted to kaypo
6. William Ho - wanted to kaypo also
7. Yin Jiong - for fun
8. Zhi Wei - for fun
9. Chew Ha'o - blogger
10. Melvin Mah - just for fun

lalala... above all the reason why i chose them were also because i just want to have ten person to tag, tag and tag~ LOL...

Tagged by Jen

replying to Jen's tag...

Here are the rules :-

1. Take a picture of yourself right now

2. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair... just take a picture

3. Post that picture with NO editing

4. Post these instructions with your picture

haha... i didn't edit the picture but i just cropped it. does it count? =X

omg my pic damn ugly!

5. Tag 5 people to do this

well, ok... five people that i'm going to tag are...

• Phoebe Chew
  
• William Ho
  
• Hooi Ling
  
• Chew Ha'o

and

• Yin Jiong

LOL... i cannot tag YC because got people tagged him d!
swt...

Happy 21st Birthday to Myself

today is my 21st birthday and i did nothing.
LOL...

early in the morning, i went to eat Hokkien Mee for my breakfast because in Kampar dont have this type of food!

then had lunch with my mother and my ee pohs (Sa Ee Poh and See Ee Poh) at the Weld Quay choo char~

the food

heh korr bak (lobster baby)

lala

*i duno what was it*

curry fish

koh kua (not really into it)

very sorry because i don't know how to translate it in English... haha.

anyway, i just want to thank See Ee Poh for footing the bill and also Sa Ee Poh for giving me ang pao! LOL! *^.^*

my ang pao~ LOL...

ok... it's my 21st birthday... and no one give me the key yet~
swt... = =


LOL... and almost all my close friends were all in KL and some in other places!
so none of my friend celebrated my 21st birthday with me... *pity*


anyway, i was touched when my housemates Corene, Ah Hock and JY played and sang Happy Birthday song for me two days ago by using JY's guitar... thank you so much.

and also thanks for those who remembered my birthday... you guys are really true friend~

as for Jen...
err... i thought we knew each other when we were in standard 4 (10 years old) ..?
LOL! *^.^* or maybe i old d that's why i can't really remember when we knew each other... haha...
yeah, you've seen me grewing up and been always there for me...
thanks for everything and thanks for being my friend!
without you, i think my life will be empty...
*oops! don't get me wrong... i'm not a lesbian! LOL...* =X

=) so long~