Heartache.

I had a big fought today with the one I loved. He is the guy who made me believe in love once more and he is the one who really made me feel that I'm the most happiest girl on earth for the past one month.

I started this fight due to my childishness and hell yeah, he wasn't in the good mood that time and the fight started.

This is our longest fight and each and every words of his, aches me and hurts me deeply. It's like a knife slicing slice by slice of my heart..

I can't help, but tears kept filling my eyes and rolls down..

This fight made me realised that he actually doesn't have any confident in our relationship. His pasts are still haunting him.. His male ego is dominating him.. And the main thing is, up til now he doesn't put a trust in me and believe that I'm actually have feel for him and love him.

I can't really believe that he actually said that I accepted him because I pitied and scared that I will hurt him. That really hurts. *ouuccchhs

I guess I'm such a failure for not gaining his confidence and earning his trust. *sigh
I guess one of the most important thing in a relationship is faith, isn't it? If the faith doesn't exist, how can the relationship lasts?

*sigh...